Posted by saada on November 14, 2002 at 09:21:58:
: : LOOK,
: : I AM A CHRISTIAN, AND MY PARENTS ARE VERY SPIRITUAL AS WELL. I LIVE IN THEIR HOME AND I AM BISEXUAL. I HAVE FOUND A FEMALE THAT I LOVE SO DEEPLY, AND I DON'T HAVE ANY INTENTIONS ON BEING WITH A DUDE. I THINK THAT IF I CAME OUT OF THE CLOSET, THEY WOULD PREACH TO ME AND TELL ME THAT I AM GOING TO HELL, AND PUT ME OUT OF THEIR HOME FOR MY SEXUAL PREFERENCE. THEY ARE SUPER RELIGIOUS FOLKS. ONE TIME THEY QUESTIONED ME ABOUT IT, AND I TOLD THEM NO, AND LATER I TOLD THEM YES. THEY WENT OFF ON ME. BUT, AT THAT TIME I WAS LIVING ON CAMPUS AT SCHOOL. WHEN I MOVED BACK IN I PRETENDED TO LIKE GUYS, I EVEN DATE THEM AT TIMES TO KEEP HUSH, HUSH. BUT, I AM DOING IT TO MAKE THEM HAPPY. I THINK THE ONLY REASON THAT ONE DAY ULTIMATELY I WANT A MAN IS FOR RELIGIOUS REASONS, AND TO HAVE A CHILD. I AM NOT DRAWN TO ME AS I AM TO FEMALES. AM I BISEXUAL, OR AM I LESBIAN? SHOULD I TAKE A RISK, ON TELLING THEM OR NOT. MY GIRLFRIEND LIVES IN PHILLY, AND I AM 90 MINUTES AWAY, SO IF THEY PUT ME OUT.... I SOMETIMES EVEN FEEL AS THOUGH GOD HATES ME FOR BEING THE WAY THAT I AM... I AM SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW... PLEASE HELP A SISTER OUT.